Dear Amazing

I was lonely
In your presence
Missing you
Even though we were together

I loved you

That's all that should have mattered?

Conversations were consistent and slowly became few

I lost something I thought was true

I was missing you

I yearned to hear your voice

The silence left

my heart unappeased

I long for your touch

distance somehow couldn't reach

Rainy days

Melancholy Follies

The rain keeps failling

the rain won't stop falling

 in my life

inward strife

days feel like nights

It's warm outside

cold indoors

flooding the floors

 and the walls of my heart

Dumb founded even when I know I'm smart

The brain doesn't work

clouded by the emotions of my heart

I don't know where I end

or where I start

I'm gonna drink until I feel all better

until my melancholy weather

subsides from my mind

I lost all foolish pride

I'm gonna drink until I'm sober

I'm gonna drink

till im sober

till the pain and loneliness is over

Drink and write

drink and write drink and write

Till I get days out of nights

one day it will be alright

Brotha R & B

I wanna a love like the old R&B flow, intense feelings show in the songs
I wanna commitment prolonged
take the time to love me all night long
I wanna a man to come on strong
If loving me ain't right, I want him to be wrong



I want the slow jammin
layin my body down and
holding my hand and
the two of us in lustful lands
Wooing me apart of his plan


He said,"Hey baby,can you woo, woo, woo?"
I answered,"Only if you want me to!"
Lovin you is all I wanna do

Slow jams
Lights of candles dance
we dance
Holding down our love like its our last chance

I want the old school  R&B love
What intimacy used to be made of
Pure as white doves, that don't cry
odds being defied

Touch

A sensual touch

Is when someone reaches into your mind

And become intimate

Before their hands

Reach your body

Habitual Liar

Your pseudo psychology
 weaved webs in my mind to deceive
Allowing me to believe
you belonged only to me
True colors which were hidden, shown through
You are not the person I thought I knew
Shame on me, double for you
I will keep my head up
and stay true
Patiently waiting
for the right companion to come through
approved
My mistake with you
a blur
You never followed through
someone I thought I knew



Should I have continued to pretend?
Your promises took on its own evolution
Never ending morph from what was truth
became a lie
Leaving me dying inside
You spoke dreams, which never came to reality
Your touch
 Loving words blinded me

Fools Gold!

But now I know
The outside sparkles
The inside so so cold


Should I have listened?
to line after line
verse after verse
lies disbursed
lies that you tell
It used to hurt like hell

No more lies
no more lines
after time
all wounds heal

your last lie sealed the deal

I'll be alone

Lessons

I invested big

Received a small return

Guess it be that way sometimes

I flew high

Do or die

Eyes to the sky

Tears in my eyes

For him I ride

Swallowed my pride

Let him shine

While I hid behind

I crashed and burned

I have lots to learn

I lived

I learned

A Woman's Intuition(how women feel when their man is cheating)

A real woman feels the strain

You know your man went astray

When he is happy to leave you in the morning

Comes home later angry

Red flags and warnings

You know your man went astray

When you used to spend all your days off together

Used to be birds of a feather

Two peas in a pod

Now he wanna "work" all day

Leave you feeling kinda odd

You know your man went astray

When he used to sex you all day and night

He used to hold you tight

Now something isn't right

Now it's few and far between

Now he'd rather be "Working"

You know your man went astray

When he uses the phone

When you're sleeping at night

He’s up not sleeping by your side

Your heart feels sore and throat tight

Cause if you speak your mind ya'll fight

You have no hard evidence

Only the pain in your stomach

The ache in your chest

When you argue he tells you, “You’re crazy"

And you have nothing on him

You emotions stirring

Vision blurring

Eyes crying

Hurtful lies and...

You find the evidence

Filling the void

Save me!

My mouth used to form smiles

Now I find myself frowning

My head used to be held high to the heavens

Now...

Grounded

So, I will sit here and down

Drink after drinks, and drink even more drinks

One hour, two hours, three

Drink a couple days

Drink until I am in a daze

Detached from reality

One moment, two moments, three moments, and the next

Spilling my tears in shot glasses

Sipping on dreams, wishing I was a queen

Love and respected

His love once there

Now undetected

Red flags

Red flags

Stop signs

Red

Remember...you're past

What they had put you through

Only angels were there

To help you

One rum and coke, two of them, three of them, and four

Rum added to coke

Removes the mind from a yoke

Stuck in bondage

Life placed me in

Fighting to be comfortable in my own skin

Momma May have,but Papa did

It's not the same anymore!

I've been pondering what my purpose is

What the hell am I here for

Momma didn't love me too well

Life was hell

I have a dark past

Maybe one day I can tell

YOU

BOO!

God bless the child who never had her own

They left me feeling alone

Left me to my own devices

The love I needed from them

I never received

Could have been priceless

Damn it!

My hearts famine

My past is frightening

Keeps me up crying nightly

My past bites me

On the ass

I need a shot for the virus,before it spreads

to my kids

Rabies

Memories are like mini movies playing in my head

never fading

premiering daily

When they should be disappearing

the ones who didn't love me and protect me, left me vulnerable

The streets raised me

Made my conscious crazy

When I was a child what could I have done, possibly did

How could they kill a child's spirit dead

Took part of my life,I was trying to live

without taking my breath

Luchetta's Unloved

Leave me alone!

Leave me alone!

To absorb my innocent delusions of my passions, my fading fantasies

Allow fallacies to heal my troubled heart

To stop the torment and bleeding

My broken heart should be free from this reality

no one will never love me for me

I thought he was meant for me
 made for me
meant to be my salvation

No one can save me

He could have saved my wandering soul

He could have made me whole

If he wanted to

If only he knew

What the impact of his love could do

Beware of who you love

Beware of Who You Love

What are you saying to someone when you are saying, "I love you?" What is the message that you are sending to them. People used these words so loosely, and never take thought to how they are using them.

The wonderful thing about the English language is that the words in our language derive from many other languages. Sometimes the English language doesn't do the words justice. The Greeks have four definitions of love.

There are four types of love in classic Greek:

1. Affection love - Greek word= eunoia  (1Cor. 7:3) example parent/child

2. Friendship love -Greek word = phileo (second most common Greek word for love in Scripture). Example friends

3. Erotic love - Greek word= eros (not used in Scripture) example relationships

4. Selfless love - Greek word= agape [ar-gar-pay] (the most common word for love in the New Testament.  Example over all over for humanity

Here is where the problem comes in. When a person says "I love you," HOW DO THEY LOVE YOU? Do they love you the same way you love them?

A good example, You can be in a relationship and you can tell him/her, "I love you ," and the love you may have towards him/her maybe eros. You want to build a life together and marry and have kids etc. However, when he/she tells you that they "love you," they maybe feeling something different than you do. They may feel the phileo type love.

So, when this person is not taking the relationship seriously, you don't understand why because they said, "I love you," there is a misunderstanding. You’re making wedding plans in your head while the other person is getting all the goods waiting for someone better to come along. The sad part is they might very well mean they love you, it just doesn't match up with you interpretation of love. SO, BE CAREFUL WHO YOU LOVE AND WHO LOVES YOU. The next time someone tells you they, "Love you," throw them for a loop and ask them to explain how and why they love you.