Dear Amazing

I was lonely
In your presence
Missing you
Even though we were together

I loved you

That's all that should have mattered?

Conversations were consistent and slowly became few

I lost something I thought was true

I was missing you

I yearned to hear your voice

The silence left

my heart unappeased

I long for your touch

distance somehow couldn't reach

Rainy days

Melancholy Follies

The rain keeps failling

the rain won't stop falling

 in my life

inward strife

days feel like nights

It's warm outside

cold indoors

flooding the floors

 and the walls of my heart

Dumb founded even when I know I'm smart

The brain doesn't work

clouded by the emotions of my heart

I don't know where I end

or where I start

I'm gonna drink until I feel all better

until my melancholy weather

subsides from my mind

I lost all foolish pride

I'm gonna drink until I'm sober

I'm gonna drink

till im sober

till the pain and loneliness is over

Drink and write

drink and write drink and write

Till I get days out of nights

one day it will be alright

Brotha R & B

I wanna a love like the old R&B flow, intense feelings show in the songs
I wanna commitment prolonged
take the time to love me all night long
I wanna a man to come on strong
If loving me ain't right, I want him to be wrong



I want the slow jammin
layin my body down and
holding my hand and
the two of us in lustful lands
Wooing me apart of his plan


He said,"Hey baby,can you woo, woo, woo?"
I answered,"Only if you want me to!"
Lovin you is all I wanna do

Slow jams
Lights of candles dance
we dance
Holding down our love like its our last chance

I want the old school  R&B love
What intimacy used to be made of
Pure as white doves, that don't cry
odds being defied

Touch

A sensual touch

Is when someone reaches into your mind

And become intimate

Before their hands

Reach your body

Habitual Liar

Your pseudo psychology
 weaved webs in my mind to deceive
Allowing me to believe
you belonged only to me
True colors which were hidden, shown through
You are not the person I thought I knew
Shame on me, double for you
I will keep my head up
and stay true
Patiently waiting
for the right companion to come through
approved
My mistake with you
a blur
You never followed through
someone I thought I knew



Should I have continued to pretend?
Your promises took on its own evolution
Never ending morph from what was truth
became a lie
Leaving me dying inside
You spoke dreams, which never came to reality
Your touch
 Loving words blinded me

Fools Gold!

But now I know
The outside sparkles
The inside so so cold


Should I have listened?
to line after line
verse after verse
lies disbursed
lies that you tell
It used to hurt like hell

No more lies
no more lines
after time
all wounds heal

your last lie sealed the deal

I'll be alone

Lessons

I invested big

Received a small return

Guess it be that way sometimes

I flew high

Do or die

Eyes to the sky

Tears in my eyes

For him I ride

Swallowed my pride

Let him shine

While I hid behind

I crashed and burned

I have lots to learn

I lived

I learned

A Woman's Intuition(how women feel when their man is cheating)

A real woman feels the strain

You know your man went astray

When he is happy to leave you in the morning

Comes home later angry

Red flags and warnings

You know your man went astray

When you used to spend all your days off together

Used to be birds of a feather

Two peas in a pod

Now he wanna "work" all day

Leave you feeling kinda odd

You know your man went astray

When he used to sex you all day and night

He used to hold you tight

Now something isn't right

Now it's few and far between

Now he'd rather be "Working"

You know your man went astray

When he uses the phone

When you're sleeping at night

He’s up not sleeping by your side

Your heart feels sore and throat tight

Cause if you speak your mind ya'll fight

You have no hard evidence

Only the pain in your stomach

The ache in your chest

When you argue he tells you, “You’re crazy"

And you have nothing on him

You emotions stirring

Vision blurring

Eyes crying

Hurtful lies and...

You find the evidence